Chapter 4Undated

entirely upon climatic conditions, upon races and customs and still more upon the times, the epoch – they are able to look at it all with a smile. But the self-righteous... oooh!

This is a primary stage. As long as you haven’t gone beyond this condition, you are unfit for yoga. Because truly, no one in such a rudimentary state is ready for yoga.

* * * A short while later: I am going downstairs on the 21st, for Saraswati Puja.9 They have prepared a folder with a long quotation from Savitri and five photos of my face taken from five different angles.

The title of the folder is the line from Savitri that gave me the most overpowering experience of the entire book (because, as I told you, as I read, I would LIVE the experiences – reading brought, instantly, a living experience). And when I came to this particular line... I was as if suddenly swept up and engulfed in... (‘the’ is wrong, ‘an’ is wrong – it’s neither one nor the other, it’s something else)... eternal Truth. Everything was abolished except this:

For ever love, O beautiful slave of God10 That alone existed.

(Regarding the ego and the ancient religious initiations which taught: ‘You are That’ or ‘You are the

All.)

A moment comes when self-observation is no longer possible.

Even in these expressions ‘All is You’ or ‘You are the All’ (and the same holds for ‘You are the Divine’ or ‘The Divine is you’), there is still something watching.

A moment comes – it comes in flashes and doesn’t easily remain – when it’s the All who thinks, the All who knows, the All who feels, the All who lives. There’s not even – not even – the feeling that you 9Saraswati represents the universal Mother’s aspect of Knowledge and artistic creativity. On this occasion, Mother would go down to the Meditation Hall and the disciples would silently pass in front of her to receive a message. This year they would receive a folder containing five photographs of Mother.