Chapter 66December 25, 1960

(Mother holds her palms upwards in an attitude of total surrender), but beatific in that it lives in itself, it is existence in itself – and that’s all.

even have the ... (naturally there is no question of ‘idea’) I don’t know, not even the instinct to pick up a flower for you, you understand? And when I sat down here, the consciousness of the column of Light started coming. There was no more personality, no more individuality: there was only a column of Light descending right into the very cells of the body – and that’s all.

Then it gradually became conscious of itself, conscious of BEING this column of Light. And then the ordinary consciousness slowly returned.

(silence)

It’s interesting for me to come here soon after the meditation, for it’s as if I were objectivizing my experience. Otherwise I’d be within, like that (gesture), and there’s no longer any ... (you see, I say ‘I’ – but at that moment it doesn’t exist!) and even THE BODY feels this way, a kind of immutable and beatific eternity, and that’s all.

with your atmosphere made me say it. But otherwise the ‘my,’ the ‘hands’ – none of it had any meaning.

It’s interesting.

(Letter to Mother from Satprem)

Pondicherry, December 25, 1960 Sweet Mother, now have only about half an hour to do three times a day!

He told me that ‘everything’ is in this new japa.

And I want also to tell you how grateful I am. You think of us even in the smallest human details – grateful is not even the word. Simply, may I serve you better, may I better give of myself.

With love.

Signed: Satprem