Chapter 23Most wonderful hours that one can have on earth 126

probably in appearance I was in danger, I do not know, one day, during the whole day, images (not “images”: these places where I was), it was so wonderfully beautiful, harmonious... it was inexpressible, inexpressible. And then, the least thing that changed in their consciousness, ah, there, all began to change! It was a kind of perpetual kaleidoscope, day and night. If one could note that down... it was unique; it was unique. And the body was inside there, yes, almost porous — porous, without resistance as though the thing was passing through.

I have had some most wonderful hours, I believe the most wonderful that one can have upon earth.

And then, it was so expressive and so revealing. So expressive. One night, for two hours, these temples of which I speak (it is not physical), so immense, so majestic... the living deities, my child! not images. And I know what it is. And then the state of consciousness of Eternity, oh!... as though above all circumstances.

There were things unique, but how to relate them?... Impossible, impossible, not even sufficient consciousness to be able to write.

The note continues:

“The seat and the field of its [the body’s] consciousness as well as the quality of its activity change and vary according to the beings present, on a whole scale from the most material up to the most spiritual, passing through all varieties of intellectual activity.

“But the perception of the Presence is constant and

associated with all states of consciousness, whatever they are...”

Ah! I became aware that the cells, everywhere like this, all the time, all the time were repeating their Mantra, all the time, all the time.

“And the Mantra is repeated spontaneously and automatically in a kind of ‘fluid’ peace.”

It is for this, well, one cannot say that it was suffering, one cannot say that it was ill; this is not possible, not possible.

25 September 1968 I have found some old papers, I do not know what they are. There is an envelope from you.

It is a question on Aphorisms.

“When I hear of a righteous wrath, I wonder at

man’s capacity for self-deception.”

Sri Aurobindo, Thoughts and Aphorisms It is wonderful!

There was a question: “It is always ‘in good faith’ that one deceives oneself: it is always for the good of others that one acts or in the interest of humanity and for serving you, it goes without saying. How does one come to deceive oneself and how to know it truly?”1 It is terribly true.

Even yesterday, without even reading it, I had a long vision on the subject; it is astonishing. But it was on such a different plane....

Yes, when you take the higher part of your mind as judge of your action, then you can “deceive yourself in good faith”. That is to say, the mind is incapable of seeing the truth and it judges by its own capacity, which is limited — not only limited but unconscious of the truth; so for the mind, it is in good faith, it does as well as it can. It is this.

Naturally, for those who are fully conscious of their psychic, it is not possible to deceive themselves, for if they refer their problem to the psychic, they can from there have the divine 1 Mother’s answer to this question is published in On Thoughts and Aphorisms, Cent. Vol. 10, pp. 80-82.