Chapter 3September 11, 1968

Now I understand, because while you were reading I was there, above, looking like this (Mother bends down), as if from above. Even now, I am seeing from above.

All that I said there was the description of the working of death.... All those complications! Here it’s so simple (descending gesture of the Vision-Force expressing itself).

It’s strange.... I have my eyes closed, but I see. Only, I see... differently. It’s very SIMPLE. It’s forces... like a Pressure like this (same descending gesture).

Very strange.

Obviously the center of the consciousness is elsewhere.

(silence

Satprem prepares to leave)

Mother, I’d like to ask for your help.

What for?

I am now writing the last pages of my book ["The Sannyasin"].

Oh!... Very well.

If I take you where I am (Mother laughs), it will be interesting!

We’ll try.

For me, only one thing has happened.... A very interesting fact that I noted. I forget the occasion and how it took place, but it was the day before yesterday, and the fact I noted was the presence of the psychic being – that the psychic being hasn’t gone at all. I said [on August 28], "The vital and the mind have gone," but the psychic being hasn’t.

I think it was in relation to someone I saw (I don’t remember), and I noticed that a very great power was there; and the PHYSICAL being, the body, was conscious of the presence of the psychic being, which was constantly there, behind. It hasn’t gone. Conscious.

It was a day when someone had come (I forget who), and the whole Force which was there before concentrated on that person – it was the same thing: the Force, the Presence, with the same Pressure on the person. And then, it was the psychic being which said, "But I haven’t gone, I’ve remained here!" With its full consciousness, you understand. It’s the intermediaries [i.e., the mind and the vital] that

It’s difficult to explain.... There is the impression of a lack – a lack from the active point of view, the point of view of everyday action.

But the contact with people, for example (the contact with people present and even when they’re not there), the relationship has remained the same, exactly the same. It’s even more constant: this state is more constant than it used to be.

It’s very difficult to explain. Here, we could put it like this: any action (occult action, I mean) seems to be at least as strong at a distance as in the presence – in certain cases, stronger. Any need of activity (there already wasn’t much of it previously) has considerably lessened. And there is a sort of difference in the outward relationship, it has changed. These last few days I have observed (and it’s obviously the psychic consciousness that observes; when I say "I," it’s not – that’s what struck me – it’s not the body: it’s the psychic consciousness), and for example, the habit of keeping my eyes closed has increased, and it doesn’t hamper the psychic being in any way. It goes on with its action, its relationship.

It may be (I am not saying anything because there’s nothing very... nothing definite, at any rate), there may be a new relationship or new intermediary being built between the psychic being and the material, the physical. It seems to be something now developing.

We’ll see.

But the Force that expresses itself, does it express itself directly or through the psychic being –

this descending Force?

The psychic being is perfectly transparent, it doesn’t cause any change.

It must depend on the case, yes, on the kind of action: on people, circumstances. Because the psychic being doesn’t in any way alter either the quality or the nature or the action of the Force. It’s like something absolutely transparent.

It varies rather according to the cases in which the Force wants to apply itself: cases, people, circumstances. When the action is general, it seems to be direct. But I am not absolutely sure. And the presence of the psychic being makes itself felt only in the case of certain people.

It strikes me as a kind of beacon – a beacon projecting the Light – and at the same time, a sort of receiving set that receives the vibrations.... It’s very, very accurate – very accurate – as regards the quality of the vibrations of everything around it. Oh, it’s become far more accurate than before. A slight movement here, there, or there, or a wave – all that is perceived very clearly, very clearly, with a consciousness which is highly receptive and at the same time without any reactions. There are no reactions, it’s like an extremely delicate (that is, sensitive) receiving set, but without any reaction. No reaction. Things come into a vast, immense, luminous movement.

The consciousness is constantly like this: something very vast – very vast – VERY peaceful, very luminous, like that, and everything gets registered in it.

The Power comes from above. And the Power is something... (what should I say?) as if warm, golden. And it gives the impression of being... (smiling) more compact.

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