Chapter 7March 27, 1968

door. The staircase has a door, and it needs a key. The key is a sufficiently sincere aspiration or a sufficiently intense prayer.... In both there is a magic power, one must know how to use it.... Some detest prayer (if they went to the bottom of their hearts, they would see it’s out of pride). And there are those who have no aspiration, who try but can’t aspire – that’s because they don’t have the flame of will, they don’t have the flame of humility. Both are needed: to change one’s Karma, one must have a

very great humility and a very great will.")

When did I say that?

In 1953.

Strange.

There’s an IMMENSE sorrow behind, something very vast, very strong. It’s strange.

Like an association with human sorrow.... It’s strange.

* * * Later:

I am going through decisive moments. But it’s very difficult.

It’s the transfer of the nervous system. I said that everything was being "transferred," one thing after another; now, it’s the nervous system. That’s... very difficult. Very difficult.

I’ll talk about it later.

On April 1st, the sports season opens, and I’ve given an... appropriate message.

I started with a paradox:

"The first condition for acquiring power is to be obedient. "The body must learn to obey before it can manifest power; and physical education is the

most thorough discipline for the body.

"So be eager and sincere in your effort for physical education and you will acquire a

powerful body."

Soon afterwards:

Everybody is quarreling.... Oh, quarrels about absolutely nothing – everybody gets angry, everybody quarrels. It’s been like that for the past three days. Astrologers say it depends on the "position of the stars" – but I don’t believe in that! I believe the position of the stars is merely... (how should I put it?) the celestial notation of terrestrial events (!) It’s not that the stars condition [events]: they are the expression.

* * * (Then Mother goes into a long contemplation which will last almost till the end. At one point, she opens her eyes and looks at Satprem as though something were taking place or she were about to say

something....)

Nothing to ask?

I felt there was something.

What?

I don’t know.

I was in fact going to ask you.... I had that same feeling – for you. Something new. No? Haven’t you had a new experience?

I felt something.

Yes, but I felt it very strongly! I was about to ask you [when Mother opened her eyes], then instead of asking you I tried to see, but I didn’t see anything! (Mother laughs)

There is a very different quality of vibration, a sort of...

Is it twelve?... Are we alone?

Yes.

The feeling of a very peaceful conscious force, but very strong, which has established itself in you, which has come down – something new. Did you feel it?

It took a mental expression a few days ago.

Oh... (in a disappointed tone) What was it?

The impression that all realizations on the heights and all the horrible hells one may live – in the Fire, they are all ONE. In the Flame, they are ONE. Up above, it all gets dissolved; down below, it