Chapter 1January 4, 1967

About a European visitor:

My impression was that she should let herself unwind, that her stay here would be good if she could open out, as a flower does, like that, relaxed.

She is very tense towards life (Mother clenches her two fists and stiffens): it's "something to keep an eye on" and "beware of"! So if she could... After all, it's such a great thing when you can say, "Oh, I can have trust, there REALLY is something concrete like a Grace, I can have trust."

That would be a great progress.

(Mother gives a flower

called "Radha")

Radha1 is surrender.2 So we'll say, "Surrender to divine solicitude brings the victory."

Are you tired?

No... I can't say "tired," I don't feel tired.... I am very... very deep within.

I feel I am there (gesture above the head), and usually it's not like that. Since this morning I've had the feeling of being there (same gesture), and it's extremely strong there, as if something were being done. I feel work is being done (at night also).

I don't know if it's an effect of your experience, but I have great difficulty being in physical things:

in words, gestures, all outward things. A great difficulty.

It began yesterday, with the sense of a very widespread action taking place.

1In Indian mythology, Radha gave herself wholly to Sri Krishna.