Chapter 5June 15, 1966

That doesn’t matter.

In fact it gives some little sense of the yoga – the yoga of Matter – of what it means.

You know, the ultimate outcome is something so wonderful that everything people have known, even those who have had the most unique, exceptional, marvelous experiences, all of it is insipid in comparison! It’s like that.

And in fact the body is beginning to be aware of it, and because it’s beginning to be aware of it, it also begins to feel that whatever the ordeal (as they call it in English), it’s not too high a price to pay for that.

It’s ready, it is ready to bear anything to have That... which is beyond all comprehension. There is a fullness of experience that cannot be known anywhere but here [in the body]. It’s something that comes (massive gesture taking hold of the entire body). As I said, an absoluteness of sincerity – you simply ARE, that’s all.

Naturally, there is a long way to go, and the way... I don’t know, maybe some people are able to strew flowers on themselves on the road, but... at any rate that doesn’t seem to me to be the most direct road!

...He is mentally very limp.

But I too feel mentally in a limp state! I get the feeling of a complete numbness.

Then that’s perfect.

Yes, but then I can’t write!

Listen, Sri Aurobindo wrote the whole Arya for I don’t know how much time, five years, I think, without a single thought in his head.

I don’t think, but I do have the thoughts of the physical, material world, the material mind. Yes, that’s there.

Oh, it keeps running?

Yes, it keeps running. But all the rest has stopped running. There’s a sort of numbness. I wouldn’t complain if I didn’t have to write!