Chapter 2January 9, 1965

(About the music composed by Sunil for January 1, 1965:)

It's odd, all that music of the past, European music, which I knew very well and admired, it seems to me almost void of substance, while here, there is a contact right up above: you plunge into it instantly.

Yes, that's right. When I heard his music for the first time, something suddenly opened up and I was right in the middle of the place I know, from which true Harmony comes – suddenly.

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(A little later, regarding the serious operation Satprem has just undergone:)

...Don't let people eat you up.

And I would like to be what you want me to be.

Yes, mon petit. I want you to be peaceful, happy, luminous, and... (Mother draws great waves in the air) living in the eternal Becoming – the sense of eternity, always. That's what I want. Because... the opening up above is there, you have it – it is there and there is a descent; it's the bustle outside that is tiring.

Take some rest, and by that I mean letting oneself flow into the eternal Movement without tensing up, without thinking, "I've got this to do, that to do, and this and that...."

Don't let people pester you. I have told Sujata....

...You must get better, mon petit.

All I can say is that there is a fierceness in the resistance to the descent of the Truth. This descent is totally concrete and evident, of course, and everything averse to it is resisting with terrible fierceness –