Chapter 6October 24, 1964
Book 8. October
The doctor himself received it as a blow – he was trembling inside.
No, what should be asked, since we're always asking for something, is for the substance to become conscious enough to receive the Force and itself work its own "miracle," get cured, or this or that, anyway do the work.
Yes, it mustn't be a "favor." "Give me the Force to be what I should be," that, yes.
What triggered the whole experience (I forgot to tell you this), when I asked the Lord, "Why? Why couldn't I do something for these people who are really nice?" is that that story of the past came back, when Sri Aurobindo told me, "You are doing a work of the Overmind, you will work miracles that will fill the world with admiration..." and so on, I told you the story. It came back massively, exactly the same thing: "That is not the truth we want...." And that's also why I stopped all those pujas of the Mother in October-November, because they all used to come with the idea of getting something: miracles, miracles, miracles – never for the True Thing. And that's what they expect of God, of course, miracles or favors, illogical and unreasonable things, instead of wanting the Divine's progressive advance.
Obviously, that's more difficult.
Mother
comments
again
on
her declaration: "I possess no powers."
Oh, it has caused a general upheaval in the atmosphere! I have even received thoughts of this kind: "So then, Sri Aurobindo deceived us!" They're furious, furious.
They haven't understood.... But anyway, it's going on in the subconscient.
No, no! They DELIBERATELY hadn't understood it before my declaration, because Sri Aurobindo never said we would work miracles! They deliberately hadn't understood. So, naturally, they're furious. But it may be better not to insist outwardly by publishing this.89 It will come in its own time.
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(As Satprem reads back to Mother the last conversation, she stops him at the following passage: "It
was a splendor! As if all of a sudden the physical world had become a solar world, splendid and