Chapter 5September 28, 1961

(Letter to Mother from Satprem)

Sweet Mother, I feel completely abandoned to myself. This book is a real SUFFERING. I don’t see where I am going, I am groping in all directions. Mother, do help me. Where lies the fault? I am suffering, you know. I would like to do it well, but it comes only in fits and starts, nothing coherent. Sometimes I feel quite incapable of carrying out this task properly.

What should I do?

Your child,

Signed: Satprem

(Mother’s reply)

Thursday Satprem, my dear child, If you agree, here is what we could do: read aloud to me what you have written; perhaps seeing it in my consciousness will help you.

If you think this could be useful, I will see you on Saturday at 10 o’clock.

With all my tenderness,

Signed: Mother (Mother gives Satprem a flower she has recently named ‘Unostentatious Certitude’: Platycodon