Chapter 4September 16, 1972

Yes, yes.

...everything that goes wrong or is defective.

Yes, yes, that’s exactly it!

But then it’s terribly negative, a drudgery.

Yes, but don’t you...? (gesture of interiorization) Do you sleep at night?

Badly, not well.

Me, I don’t sleep at all anymore, but it’s... it’s marvelous! The only marvelous moment (immobile gesture, arms and hands open in total surrender). It’s absolutely like bathing in the Lord, you know: like this (same gesture). There’s no active sensation, no... nothing. Nothing. Nothing but... a luminous peace.

This is certainly what will eventually replace sleep. Sleep, the fall into unconsciousness we call sleep, will disappear and be replaced by (same gesture, arms open, smiling).

For the body, it’s... we could say, bathing in the Lord.

There’s not even a trace, not the faintest sensation of an individual person – utterly gone. It’s a STATE of consciousness.

A state of consciousness.

(Mother plunges in,

her arms and hands open)

Here’s a “Grace” – for both of you.

(Mother gives a white hibiscus)

I had a practical question to ask you.... A thought occurred to me, and Id like to know how you consider it. Two or three years ago, I sent my book, “The Sannyasin,” to Europe; I asked P.L. to try to find a publisher for it in Europe. Now it’s in the hands of “Auropress.” When I sent it to