Chapter 3June 7, 1972

...People are so corrupt, you know, that were the Grace to withdraw but one hour, everything would go... brrm! (gesture of violent explosion).

What do You bring?... And how do you feel?

Well, I think I can feel your presence better.

Ahh!

In fact, I feel that alone can straighten things out.

It’s the Lord’s presence passing through me – through what people call “me.” An aggregate of cells which... (laughing) took this form pretty long ago!

Yes, but this form is very....

This form is.... It’s most peculiar, you know: that [cellular] consciousness gives an impression of something trying to become fluid. Something is obviously trying to make it manifest a... an otherness.

Be an otherness. But how?...

(silence)

The body is comfortable only when it is conscious of the divine Force acting (gesture of descent through the body), but otherwise it’s....

Any concentration on the body itself causes a kind of strange discomfort, a discomfort which stops only when it is conscious of the Force – of the Force working (same gesture of descent through Mother), the Force working, when “That” comes and flows through it. Then the... I can’t say “the old method” is gone, it’s not at all that, it’s... something.

(Smiling) There’s a phrase that comes to me in English: the joy of nothingness.

(silence)

But don’t you have any questions?

Personally, for example, before, my tendency was to turn to Sri Aurobindo or to a Force... to THE

Force – to That, to the Lord, I don’t know. Well, but the effect has not at all been the same since I