Chapter 5March 11, 1972

I know. I know that. All depends on what the Divine Will is – He doesn’t tell me! When I ask Him, I have the impression... (once or twice, in moments of difficulty, I have put the question regarding this body), and then (laughing) I seem to see a smile, you know, a smile as big as the world, but no answer.

I can still see that smile: “Don’t try to know, it is not yet time.”

(the clock strikes)

If we knew how to remain always in the true consciousness, there would be... a smile. But we have a tendency to become tragic. It’s our weakness.

It is our limitations that make a drama. We are too small – too small and too shortsighted. But... the Consciousness knows – it knows.30 I’ve received a letter from P.L. This is what he says:

You may have already learned that Cardinal Tisserant died on the 21st [of February]. As he was in reality the Vice-Pope, you can imagine the pomp of the funeral ceremony, with representatives from the French government, the French Academy, the Italian government, etc.: one full week of ceremonies. Being his secretary, I had to organize everything. I am very tired.... Msgr. R. very much suffered from this loss. I think he will be coming to you in a few weeks, or a month at most: he is determined to get out. Many things have happened since his meeting with Mother....31 While filing some papers, I came across the enclosed document which may interest you. I hope the bishopric continues to leave you in peace....”

The document is a copy of Cardinal Tisserand’s letter to the Archbishop of Pondicherry:

Albano, Regina Apostolorum, 13 January 1972

To His Excellency Msgr. A.R.

Archbishop of Pondicherry 30The recording of this conversation has been kept in the Ashram, most probably never to be seen again. Satprem used to keep all the tapes of his conversations with Mother, but since this particular conversation concerned Auroville's architect and R., at the time he thought it better to entrust the tape to Mother's new attendant after transcribing it.