Chapter 11February 19, 1972

But how wonderfully things get organized when you really and sincerely put yourself in the Divine’s hands! This year, for instance, is like being bathed in Sri Aurobindo, you know.

(Mother goes into meditation)

You have nothing to ask, nothing to say?

There are some passages from Sri Aurobindo you might want to use this year, for the Centenary:

“I have never known any will of mine for any major event in the conduct of the world affairs to fail in the end, although it may take a long time for the world-forces to fulfil it.”

(October 1932)

On Himself, XXVI.55

“I have never had a strong and persistent will for anything to happen in the world – I am not speaking of personal things – which did not eventually happen even after delay, defeat or even disaster.”

(October 19, 1946)

On Himself, XXVI.169 It’s interesting.

Do you want to use one of them for the 15th of August?

Which is stronger?

The second, I think.

I think so too.

The former is from 1932, the latter from 1946.

Oh!...

Do you see something?

(Mother plunges in.

Half an hour goes by)

No inclination to speak unless you put questions....23

Am I getting a little closer?

Oh, you’re doing very well, mon petit! That....

(Mother takes Satprem’s hands

long silence)

Last time, my impression was that the old man in you had awakened in order to be transformed. But only you can know.... I felt that because he was a totally different man from the one I know now. But only you can tell me if he has actually been transformed or if he has disappeared.

I don’t know. I think he’s trying to get transformed...

Yes, that was my impression. But now I have the feeling that that division no longer exists. When I look at you.... When I was there [in Satprem], I felt that the division no longer exists – only you can tell me if at other times it comes back.

As you are now, near me, it’s very good – very good, it’s smooth. I don’t know how to put it, smooth.... I don’t sense any struggle or conflict or difficulty in you, none at all. Perhaps I don’t see it or....

No, no! Of course, you see, Mother!

You see, the Presence is constantly here; when people come, they dim it, as it were, they create obstructions, but when you are here (immutable gesture), there is none of that, it’s quiet, it’s.... In other words, He is here. Which to me is a sign that you’re doing well.

(Mother plunges in)

All I see is very good – very close. Very close.

What shall I say?... How shall I put it?... You see, when there’s nobody here, there’s an eternal and luminous existence; when people come, they bring problems, difficulties. But, when you are here – when you are here, even when I hold your hands, like now – there’s the same Quiet. A luminous peace that... that leads to Joy, you follow?

It’s good, mon petit, very good. Don’t worry. I can tell you: it’s good.