Chapter 8September 23, 1970

I don’t know, I have it now.

Does it come from me?

No! No... I live in a... (Mother shakes her head).

(long silence)

It’s better to read me something.

(Satprem reads a few Aphorisms of Sri Aurobindo for the next issue of the Bulletin)

159 – He who recognizes no Krishna, the God in man, knows not God entirely; he who knows Krishna only, knows not even Krishna....

That’s good, it’s very GOOD.

Yet is the opposite truth also wholly true that if thou canst see all God in a little pale unsightly and scentless flower, then hast thou hold of His supreme reality.

Then I have hold of my supreme reality, but...! (Mother laughs) All right, it’s good, it’s some consolation! (laughter)

(Satprem goes on reading,

then asks)

Does it tire you?

Tire? Oh, no.... It comforts me a little! It doesn’t tire me at all.

(silence

Satprem lays his forehead

on Mother’s knees)

The next time, you’ll read to me. At least it’s... [comforting?].

I found some old papers again....

(Satprem reads)

“When you stand in the light of the Supreme Consciousness you must not make a shadow.”

I told you the story....104 That’s fine.

(silence)

What have you brought?

There is the November Bulletin.... Is there anything new?

No.

(Then Satprem proposes to publish some fragments of the conversation of September 9 – the infernal Agenda – in the Bulletin.)

Regarding Sri Aurobindo,105 we mustn’t put it in the Bulletin.... That’s impossible, it would cause a revolution.

As for the end,106 that’s terrible – we can’t put that.

I’ll leave only what I told you: “We shall conquer, Mother,” and your answer, “Yes.” And that’s all.

It’s difficult to put that without... without something comforting.

Do you have something comforting?

(Mother laughs, long silence

meditation)

Peace has returned again.

What do we do for this Agenda? Do we publish it like that?

There should be something at the end.... Because now that [the “hell”] is gone, it’s quite gone. We 104See Agenda X of April 16 and May 3, 1969.

105“The tortures he was subjected to.”