Chapter 3September 10, 1969

I have nothing to say.

My body is going through extraordinary experiences, but they can’t be told.... It’s as if it were shown how, in all sorts of circumstances – innumerable circumstances – how one goes towards death and how one goes towards life: with everything, everything, you understand, every part of the body, every organ, every activity, one after another – impossible to tell. One can’t talk about it.

It’s interesting. But this body was built in a curious way, because every time it’s in external contact with wickedness, that is, the will to hurt, the will to destroy, the will to cause harm, it doesn’t understand, and that gives it... you know, like a kind of child’s sorrow: “How can that be?...” And I see that it’s used for a certain work, but...

(silence)

There is also a whole little teaching of every minute with regard to the different ways of receiving sensations (of the body, of course), like the teaching you are given when you do the yoga: the attitude with regard to all thoughts, reactions, feelings, all those things; you are taught to have the true attitude (all that is the past). Well, the body is given the same teaching in detail: the attitude to be taken with regard to every sensation: every sensation – every event, everything that happens, every contact. It’s a painstaking work, in details. And it’s accompanied by a general attitude; but the general attitude, the body has taken it, it’s a settled thing – it’s the working out, that is, the painstaking work of every minute.... It’s not interesting. It’s only the body that finds it interesting; even then, it’s not fascinated – it’s something painstaking, a painstaking work. The reactions to the attitudes in action – not what people say, not that, only their gestures, their attitudes, all that. How to have constantly the true bodily attitude.

It’s a long, painstaking work, without... without anything fascinating.

* * * (Then Satprem suggests the publication of the conversation of August 16 in which Mother says that the “Only solution” is to be in a state of inner stillness that does not seek to know or foresee, and to let the

Force flow through the instrument; then, automatically, what has to be done is done, what has to be

received is received.)

I don’t think, however, that it can be recommended to everyone to be in that state.

Yes, I do understand. But it can still point to the state one should aspire to.