Chapter 61December 2, 1960

(silence)

I’m telling you all this because of what happened the other day. It’s with such experiences that the ... the true Power is acquired.

And then, at the same time, some rather interesting things are happening. Imagine, X is starting to understand certain things – that is, in his own way he is discovering the progress I am making; he’s discovering it as a received teaching (through subtle channels). He wrote a letter to Amrita two or three days ago in which he translates in his own language, with his own words and his own way of speaking, exactly my most recent experiences – things that I have conquered in a general way.

This interests me, for these things do not at all enter through the mind (he doesn’t receive a thing there, he’s closed there). So in his letter he says that this thing or that is necessary (he describes it in his own words), and he adds, ‘This is why we must be so grateful to have among us the ... the great Mother258 (as he puts it), the great Mother who knows these things.’ – ‘Good!’ I said to myself. (It had to do with something specific concerning the capacity for discrimination in the outside world, the different qualities and different functions of different beings, all of which depends on one’s inner construction, as it were.) So I see that even this, even these physical experiences, is received (and yet I hadn’t tried, I had never tried to make him receive it); it merely works like this, you see (gesture of a widespread diffusion), and the experience is very – how should I say? – drastic, with a kind of ... (power of radiation). Imperative.

(After meditating together)

A sort of unification is taking place [in you], as if you had become a more uniform whole within-without. I don’t know how to explain this – it feels more unified, more organized – uniform. Not some parts more developed and others less so, some more luminous and others less so; it’s much more uniform, and uniform even in the vibration, a kind of ... really a uniformity in all its movements, responses, vibrations, light. And this kind of powdering of the new light which I see is much more widespread. It’s as if everything, everything ... what is happening is really a work of unifying – stabilizing, unifying. And this powdering of golden light has completely enveloped you, with this same blue light in your japa, with different intensities of power – both are there. Like a unifying of the consciousness, as if all the less receptive elements were starting to open, thereby creating a much more homogeneous whole. I don’t know how your nights are, but ...

Not very conscious.