Chapter 164June 9, 1959

Satprem, my dear little one, past days. New doors of understanding have opened – but all these things are impossible to write.

As for the mantra, since two days I am sure about it, and all is well. either.

If X told you to go see your mother in August and return m early September, you must go. We shall manage. My finances are in an almost desperate state, but that cannot last. For what has to be done will be done.

... ... ... ...

You are constantly with me, and I am following all your inner movements with love and concern.

The great secret is to learn to give oneself ...

With all my tenderness.

Signed: Mother

(Letter to Mother from Satprem)

Rameswaram, June 9, 1959 Sweet Mother, Forgive me for these last letters. I was suffering. It seems to me that for months I have been far away from you. I no longer see you in my dreams, I no longer feel you. What, then is this path I am following?

In spite of all my revolts, I need you, I need truth, Light, and love. I feel I have already known all this, had all this, and that I have been dispossessed. Perhaps that is why I suffer.

Mother, lead me towards you, I am blind and without strength.

Your child,

Signed: Satprem

(Mother’s reply)