Chapter 27The Mother’s Presence · Union with the Mother

why you do not feel it when in the Mother’s physical presence.

25 December 1933

* If you feel the Mother’s presence for the greater part of the day, it means that it is your psychic being that is active and feels like that — for without the activity of the psychic it would not be possible. Therefore your psychic being is there and not at all far off.

14 March 1935

* What you feel is not imagination. You have been going more and more into the psychic consciousness deep within you. When one is in the psychic, one begins to feel the presence of the Mother always with one and this becomes more and more frequent, constant, vivid and real as the psychic develops its power. This presence is felt in different ways by different sadhaks, but it is a true experience of the sadhana. It is what we mean when we say that the sadhak must come to feel always the presence of always, only her presence is veiled by the ordinary movements of the mind, vital and physical, but when these become quiet and the psychic unveils itself, then one feels the presence of the Divine within.

29 February 1936

* He must go into himself and find the presence of the Divine Mother within and the psychic behind the heart and from there the knowledge will come and also the power to dissolve the inner obstacles.

21 December 1936

* It is good that you have come out of the bad condition. It is true that before the darshan or at that time attacks are apt to be violent — for the forces that oppose are very conscious and use their whole strength to spoil the darshan if they can. What has to be gained is the constant prominence of that part which is always aware of the Mother — it is of course the psychic — for that though it can be covered over for the time being cannot be misled by the contrary suggestions. Once it is awake, it always reemerges from obscuration — that is the guarantee of the final arrival at the goal, but if it can be maintained in front or even consciously felt behind in all conditions, then the stages of the way also become comparatively safe and can be passed with greater ease and security.

6 February 1937

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In the evening meditation, there was an intense movement of surrender from the heart. I had the feeling of Mother’s presence immediately in front of me and aspiration rose up from below. There was a willing and loving surrender from the heart, from the entire being, as if for fulfilment. I suppose the psychic being came to the front.

You had the psychic condition there and that means a coming of the influence of the psychic being to the front.

But why did I feel the Mother’s presence in front of me and not within me?

It is when there is a complete psychic opening within that there is the presence within. The Presence in front means that it was with you, but had still to enter within.

13 July 1937

Is what X writes in his poem possible? He says:

“Even in sleep-depths I am wide awake To thy sweet Presence that is always there.”

That does happen, but usually only when the psychic is in full activity.

27 September 1934

* It [feeling the Mother’s presence during sleep] follows naturally the presence in the waking state, but it takes a little time.

11 January 1935 It is for most people not easy to feel the Mother’s presence with the work — they feel as if they are doing the work, the mind getting busy and not having the right passivity or quietude.

You write

psychic being

.3 But your psychic being is already awakened, if it were not, you would not have these experiences. The inner being which you feel in union with understood what I wrote to you, it might be better if you show Nolini my letter and ask him to explain to you the difference between the three layers

of the being about which I have spoken in the letter —

(1) The inmost psychic being which is now awakened in you.

(2) The external being which you feel doing work while the inner (psychic) is in union with the Mother.

(3) The inner mental, vital and physical consciousness which connects the two, but of which you are not as yet conscious.

9 April 1931

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Is it true that one should feel that it is the Divine Presence which moves one and does everything for one? Would it be possible to feel it without a union with the Divine Mother?

No — that is itself a union with her — to feel the Divine Presence above or in you and moving you.

14 July 1933

* 3 “As long as my psychic being is not awakened.” — Ed.