Chapter 19The Mother’s Presence · The Mother’s Knowledge and Her Emanations

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7 March 1936

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You write, “Certainly very few seem to realise what a possibility has been given them here.” What precisely do you mean by “possibility” — possibility of what?

I was not speaking of any particular thing — but the whole spiritual possibility due to the Mother’s presence here. Very few realise what that means and even those who have some idea of it take little advantage and allow their lower nature to block the progress.

9 March 1936

X writes: “One thing I do not understand. Though I feel the Mother so near to me, these forces still dare to come and disturb me. How is this possible?” Please tell me what to reply to him.

The forces can always be there so long as there is not the transformation of the whole nature. They manifest themselves whenever they can. But if the Presence of the Mother can always be felt vividly and continuously, then one need not be troubled by their endeavours; one can face and repel them in the full consciousness of the Mother’s grace and protection.

Do doubt and ego continue even after one has the realisation of the Divine Consciousness and the Mother’s Presence?

No doubt can remain if there is the realisation of the Divine Consciousness and the Mother’s Presence. Imperfections may remain in the outer being, but they do not trouble the inner being and can be got rid of quietly.

* In your letters you say always that the Mother has withdrawn from you and you think she does it deliberately because of some always present with you; she does not withdraw. But if you believe otherwise, if you always expect her to withdraw, it will cloud your perception and prevent you from realising her presence. On the contrary, have the faith that, whether you feel it or not, her presence and her protection are always there. When old feelings or attachments rise from the subconscient, call her always ready to act. Do not admit any thoughts or ideas that lead to despondency or any kind of tamas.

6 May 1930

* It is quite true that if the consciousness remains always centred in the Mother, then there would be no place for any kind of obscuration or disturbance; but that is not easy for the human mind and vital to get at once. One has to go on perseveringly till one has reached it.

The quickness with which the consciousness changes is a feature of the ordinary action of the physical consciousness when it is active and not inert. But many of the things you now feel (of which you speak in your letters), e.g. the idea of the Mother’s presence and her regard on you, the reference in what you think and do to her with the idea of her approval or disapproval, are signs that the psychic is acting in your lower vital and physical mind and increasing its rule over their movements.

The forms that came before your eyes are sometimes glimpses of the things on other planes, sometimes symbols; e.g., the golden water, golden tree, rising moon. At certain stages of the inner opening such things come in great number before the inner vision. The feet of which you saw the golden footprints must have been the Mother’s in one of her divine forms descending from the higher plane. The pricking and the heat are both of them signs of an action of the Force taking place within and so affecting the body.

The psychic relations I spoke of are those which men form in life which help the power of the psychic to grow and prepare it for the time when it will be ready to come forward and govern the mind, vital and body instead of allowing the mind or the vital to lead the rest. There is a difference between the psychic and the self. The self is the Atman above which is one in all, remains always wide, free, pure, untouched by the action of life in its ignorance. Its nature is peace, freedom, light, wideness, Ananda. The psychic (antar¯atm¯a) is the individual being which comes down into life and travels from birth to birth and feels the experiences and grows by them till it is able to join itself with the pure Atman above.

9 April 1936

I saw the Mother in an experience. Is it an emanation of hers that I saw or is it her whole body and whole consciousness?

An emanation. How can her physical body be seen in a dream experience?

7 July 1933

* out in a different emanation to each sadhak.

11 December 1933

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During the afternoon sleep I often come in contact with the Mother. Is it the Mother who sends her emanation?

Yes. Or rather something of her is always with you.

14 December 1933

In the case of X, I was under the impression that Mother could at once know of such things. Some even say that she knows everything — all that is material or spiritual.

Good Lord! you don’t expect her mind to be a factual ency-clopaedia of all that is happening on all the planes and in all the